You might want to grab a cup of coffee or hot chocolate for this post…it is kinda long!
Bad races happen, that does not make it any easier or any less disappointing!…and it happened to me yesterday 🙁
It is so easy to try to want to find a reason why. Was it my training, did I eat right, did I stay up too late, was I on my feet too long the day before…and the list could go on and on. Sometimes there just is no exact reason other than it just wasn’t my day. I am pretty sure that is all it came down to for me yesterday. This wasn’t my first marathon….it is actually my 4th….but my training for this race has been far more planned and been far better than any training I have done for any other race. My other marathons I just put the miles in at whatever comfortable pace I felt like. While training for this race I made speed and tempo runs a priority. We had our kids were with friends the days leading up to and during the race so the preparation was a lot easier. We rested a lot on Friday and went to bed early. I feel like I did it all right….but that is not reflected in my race.
Back up to 4 months ago when I ran my first half marathon with some friends. I didn’t even specifically train for this race, we walked around all day the day before the race and hardly drank anything, we stayed up far too late the night before catching up with friends…basically I did not al all feel prepared for this race and I went into it not even sure of what my goal was. The result was a 1:32 half and I was thrilled with it! So what happened yesterday?…
I say all of that just to prove that sometimes we can do everything right and still have a bad race. That is how yesterday went for me. It doesn’t mean I wished I hadn’t trained as hard or I am not proud of what I have already accomplished…I am just disappointed. It is really important to remember in running and in other things we have come up in our life…the outcome may not always come out the way we planned, but that does not mean that the journey didn’t grow us and make us stronger along the way!
Friday we had a great, relaxing day and were in bed by 10 pm. Sat the alarm went off at 5, I got up had a banana and a piece of toast and got ready. I kept going back and forth on which top I wanted to go with, but finally settled on my purple Mizuno top and arm sleeves (it was a chilly 36 degree race start). I wore my favorite Saucony shorts, purple ProCompression socks, my new running hat (which I LOVE), and my Mizuno elixer’s. I also carried my RunningLuv’s. Can I just throw in that I really LOVE these! They are a great product and great company! They were so sweet to send me a nice email before my race :).
We left the hotel by 6 am and only had a bout a 15 minute drive. We checked our bags and I did a short warm-up before I headed to the start line.
This race had a 3:15 pacer and a 3:30 pacer but nothing in between. I would have loved a 3:20 and if I felt good I could try to catch the 3:15. After debating which group to hang with I finally decided to just go for it and stick with the 3:15. In hindsight maybe I should have held back a little or started with the 3:30….but I really feel like I trained for a 3:15 and why did I do that if I wasn’t going to go for it! Was that right thinking or not…who knows…and who knows, maybe the same thing would have happened if I went out slower too.
The course was crazy hilly, but I knew that going into it. We also live in a hilly area so it is not like I never run hills…I actually run them all the time!
Truth is….from the start I felt a little off.
At the beginning of the race I was thinking it was cold and I needed to warm up, but as the race went on that feeling got worse….I just thought maybe I could ignore it and hang on. To make matters a little worse my stomach was not liking the chews. I kept trying to eat them but each time it made my stomach hurt a little worse…so after my 3rd one at about mile 11 I just stopped and tried to go without them. I felt like I could hang with the 3:15 pace group through mile 13-14….then I started to fall back a little (not much though…maybe 20 seconds or so) and my hip started hurting a little and I fell back a little more. About mile 19 I thought, if I could stop and shake it out or something maybe I would feel better….and from then on I lost the pace. Once I stopped I just could not get going again…it wasn’t there. It hurt more and my muscles had stiffened up. It was slightly heart breaking. When you want your body to just respond and it doesn’t it just kinda stinks!
To start with my Garmin chose this day of all times to not work right! It started but then half way through the first mile it just lost signal and started over…so I missed the first mile. My 5k split was on…7:43, my 10k pace was on…7:32, my 1/2 pace was on…7:37, even my 21 mile pace would have been ok….8:06 but my finish pace was 8:37. I also completely understand that this is still a great time…it is just not what I trained for. Here are the times I have off my Garmin
1. don’t have
8. 7:08 (these are fast miles but they make up for some of the slower hilly miles)
16. 8:46 (starting to really worry here)
17. 8:22 (trying to pull it together
20. 8:25 (trying so hard to rally and pull through)
21. 10:20 (I walked some)
22. 12:27 (probably the most discouraging mile)
24. 9:12 ( a super nice runner helped me through this mile
26.2. my watch started acting up and I didn’t get the end
The final outcome…3:45…overall….it was disappointing. So, where do I go from here? The funny thing about races is that when I have a good one I want to do another one to see how much better I can do. This race I would have to say has been my first “bad” race….so how do I feel after it…
I want to do another one…like tomorrow to prove I can do better. Okay, so maybe not tomorrow because my quads are not happy with me right now. But I have seriously considered trying to find one that I could run within the next month. I know of one that is in two weeks….Is that crazy? Has anyone else done that? I do have a few ideas about a spring marathon, but that seems so far away. Who knows…maybe that is silly to want to do one so soon and maybe my legs are shot and wouldn’t be able to do another one…but I trained to do better and I want to!
So for me I guess this race was extremely disappointing and yet extremely motivating! I am not sure when…but i am still going for that 3:15!
Any thoughts on how soon is too soon?
Anybody else have disappointing races?
Anybody have a good race to tell me about and cheer me up!?